Witnessing Is Balance

    "I have heard a beautiful story - I don't know how far it is correct, I cannot vouch for it.
     In paradise one afternoon, in its most famous cafe, Lao Tzu, Confucius, and Buddha are sitting and chatting. The waiter comes with a tray that holds three glasses of the juice called "Life," and offers them. Buddha immediately closes his eyes and refuses; he says, "Life is misery."
     Confucius closes his eyes halfway - he is a middlist, he used to preach the golden mean - and asks the waiter to give him the glass. He would like to have a sip - but just a sip, because without tasting how can one say whether life is misery or not? Confucius had a scientific mind; he was not much of a mystic, he had a very pragmatic, earthbound mind. He was the first behaviorist the world has known, very logical. And it seems perfectly right - he says, "First I will have a sip, and then I will say what I think." He takes a sip and he says, "Buddha is right - life is misery."

What About Love?

D:        Let`s discuss, how can we reach to love?
A:        So we start communicating?
D:        I already started
Odilia: We follow you! Let us think!
A:        What do we start with? Love or friendship?
Odilia: Why must we start with something or another thing? Why can`t we just be in them both?
A:        It`s a good start.
D:        So, how can we reach to love?
A:        I belive that the easiest way is trough the small things that bring us joy.
D:        You mean joy = love?
A:        I do not know if we can put =, but it can help us.

Responsibility

     "Responsibility is a choice. I often refer to it as being the key to freedom. Your future can be everything you have ever dreamed about and then some. You have the talent and tools to experience one beautiful day after another. That is, in fact, what I believe the architect of the universe had in mind for you when you were created. If that was not so, you would have never been endowed with such awesome powers.
     My good friend and mentor, Val Van De Wall wrote, “When a person takes responsibility for their life and the results they are obtaining, they will cease to blame others as the cause of their results. Since you cannot change other people, blame is inappropriate. Blaming others causes a person to remain bound in a prison of their own making. When you take responsibility, blame is eliminated and you are free to grow.”

Serenity

     Calmness of mind is one of the beautiful jewels of wisdom. It is the result of long and patient effort in selfcontrol. Its presence is an indication of ripened experience, and of a more than ordinary knowledge of the laws and operations of thought.
     A man becomes calm in the measure that he understands himself as a thought-evolved being, for such knowledge necessitates the understanding of others as the result of thought. As he develops a right understanding, and sees more and more clearly the internal relations of things by the action of cause and effect, he ceases to fuss and fume and worry and grieve, and remains poised, steadfast, serene.

From Green To Awareness

S-san: You know, since I met you I do not eat meat anymore. It`s been almost 3 months.
Odilia: And how do you feel?
S-san: Physically I feel good, and mentally I feel I respect myself more. For the moment I succeeded to inspire one person only, the rest are ok in their world, happy with the unhappiness.
I recently saw a documentary with some tribes from Africa. Even though they were hunting, they were appreciating meat alot, being grateful to the spirit of the animal and not wasting any piece of it.
People do not assume their responsability. They let it all on God. Health comes from God. Diseases come from God as well.
Odilia: Funny aren`t they?
S-san: Yes. If you are very positive, you can say it`s funny. If you are more realistic, you would say it`s a little bit sad.
Odilia: Important is to show the message. If they are prepared to receive it, they will, if not, not. You know, "who has ears to hear, shall hear; who has eyes to see, shall see."
Once a christian told me that God gave the animals to man as food. In the beginning of the Bible, in Genesis, it is written: all the seeds and the fruits that grow in trees shall be for man to eat.
S-san: Yes...
I was thinking to make an exhibition with a more true message. Am wondering though how to express this things in a more positive manner. To offer an alternative. It wouldn`t be so bad for them if they would make use of it, and they would show as well some gratitude and counsciousness to the nature. Nowadays though, tremendous amount of people are parasites. They do not know anymore where they come from and where they`ll return to. We consume and consume resources, but what do we give? When will we plant a tree, a flower? When will we take care of a piece of land? I am happy to see them. Because I am more and more aware.
Odilia: You know, to be positive means trusting that the original source, in it`s omnipotence, let everything be as it should. Every negative part helps us to, sooner or later, apreciate and understand the positive part. If you look back in history you will see that the parasites were there all along.
You see? If you wake up inspired by me, the person you inspired will certanly find from one hundred at least one to inspire. Which at its turn will inspired another and another and another. And before you know it, just because you woke up, you`ll help hundreds of people.
S-san: Yes. Beautifully said.
Odilia: I was asked many times what do I solve with my awareness if people are the way they are. But you see, you solve sooooooooooo much. So be happy. Don`t be upset with the ignorants around you. Bless them and wish them a soon awakening. And be grateful to divinity that trough their ignorance you become more aware and you own self raise higher and higher.
S-san: Yes. True. But because this wave of parasitism is so big and powerful and self destructive it affects as well those that choose to live differently. I mean, what they are doing affects as very much as well, because they are so many. And what we do affects them so little to almost at all. It`s a more powerful force as many as souls participate.
Odilia: If you look around you you might drown in so much ignorance. If you look at the overall, you`ll notice that there are many like you.
S-san: Yes. I must look up to people who are the examples.
Odilia: Think of all those books you read and those documentaries you`ve seen. But then what about all of those you haven`t? You will need hundreds of lifes to research them all. Plus that, all those that wake up take attitude. They want to do something with the information.
Do you mind me posting this conversation so that other might pe intrigued to awareness?
S-san: Certanly. If it helps you. If it helps you help them I mean.
from "Dialogs" with Odilia C. C. and S. N.

Experiencing Life Trough Film

     I do not have a certain type or genre as favorite but I do like movies that raise questions. Movies that help us learn and experience other cultures, way of thinking and living, from past, present, future societies and people (that we would not be able to encounter in our day to day life), as a way of understanding, integrating and connecting with the world as a whole. Also funny, spiritual, science fiction, fantasy movies, are great ways to expand our world of possibilities and imagination.
     As is not always easy to remember all the movies I saw and liked, I thought making a post, to make it easier for myself and all those that continuously ask me.
     So here are my personal favorites (unfinished list):

Green Choices

     So, many of you know by now that I am a pro - vegetarian, biologic, organic, super foods and any kind of products that help our body, mind, spirit and suroundings be clean and pure. While keeping a grasp on reality (as such things are hardly possible nowadays) I still belive that, like me, there are people out there comitted to make a difference in the world and our lifes for the better.
     Many times I have talked about all kinds of this products to many of my friends and guests.  Today, while doing my shopping for the end of the year I thought to make it easier (for myself and those of you that have shown much interest) and post a list of my favorite ones.
      I will be adding more on the way. For more information on why this are wonder products just click on them.
Healthforce Greener Grasses 284g Carafe Alladin Gold by TC Energy Design 1.3l Dr. Goerg Organic Coconut Butter 1l Dr. Goerg Premium Organic Coconut Oil 1l

Which Way?

S:          Let`s meditate together... And help me to succeed being what I always desired to be.
Odilia: More precisely?
S:          Positive, open to knowledge, immune to pessimism and suffering.
Odilia: And how do you think I could help you?
S:          To start trusting myself and others... to open up to love... and to complete myself before others. To find myself a purpose and stop destroying myself.
             You can!
             You always can!

All Because Of Us

     For the Christmas concert I am preparing a cute song (cover) together with Dima Dzibrou, "Because Of You".  We are still trying to figure out the nicest styling for it but here are some raw versions of it from our rehearsals.  
 
 
 
     For the second song we decided on the old "Santa Baby". 

Ode to Jules Massenet

     Sunday, 7 October 2012, I joined Olga van der Pennen with this songs, belonging and dedicated to Jules Massenet, in her quest to revive classical music within the hearts of people and the cultural life of Best.
 
  
 
     We had a lovely time preparing and performing at Odulphuskerk and the auditorium seemed to very much enjoy it as well. I sincearly and heartily thank all those present for the wonderful words you adressed me. It always means alot to know people appreciate our efforts and find pleasure in our music.

Painting As A Form Of Meditation

     Often used by psychologists to evaluate mental and emotional conditions, found to be a way to stress relief and a healthier self esteem (as resulted in several studies), painting is an outlet of self expression, that usually end as a piece of art that reflects your inner state of being
      It is said that painting will literally change your life by helping you gain self-esteem and a confidence you never knew you possessed. While it provides an excellent source of personal relaxation and even physical therapy it`s also allowing you to associate creativity with every aspect of your life  and to discover in yourself a greater awareness of the beauty of nature.
     For me painting it`s an act of meditation. A way to be quite and enjoy some peaceful time with my own self in the depths of solitude.

Mereu Am Fost Aici

Odilia: Multe lucruri trebuie sa facem noi ca sa dea si Dumnezeu sign out dintr-un messenger.
            N-o sa intelegi nimic. Stiam.
S -san:  Hihihi.
            Cred ca am inteles.
            Desi n-are sens.
Odilia: De ce razi?
            Crezi ca-s nebuna?
S -san: Rad pentruca nu ma asteptam.
            Cine a zis ca esti nebuna?

People

J:        "Why do I meet this people and why I cannot handle this? Why do I feel grievance instead of power and evil within myself? That is the question but you are of the kind that only poses new questions instead of the answer thin me wants. I regret losing control but how to get it back so that I can make people happy again."
Odilia: "Gaining back control is a matter of choice. You decide so and you do it! You don`t try, you don`t wish, you don`t hope. You just do it! But the question is why should you make people happy? Trying to feed people happiness is a never ending journey that leads to no succes.
             People are people.. sometimes they are randomly in our life as to fill the world we are creating within ourselves sometimes they come around on purpose to mirror our own self so we can face our errors (in thinking - as there are no other errors - Just experiences!)
             And the real happiness that you can give to people around you is your own bliss.
             However were you high when you wrote this? or just the long term side effects? :D"

The 5th Rotary Art Fair

     The 5th Rotary Art Fair in 2012 was hold at Evoluon in Eindhoven. Besides design  and exposition of renowned galleries from home and abroad, for the benefit of  Heppie Foundation and the pleasure of cocreating, together with the pianist Olga van der Pennen  and the guitarist Giuseppe Coppola, we assambled as well a varied musical program.
 
  

Vortex Paralel

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     Sunt tristă purşi simplu şi tu oricum ştii de ce. Timpul trece aiurea şi totdeauna e prea curând. Desigur, împreună tristeţea e de nesuportat.
     Dacă ai şti ce stare perfectă e atunci când contezi pentru un om ca tine.. Până şi ultimul gând ştie că abia s-a întors dintre cuvintele tale.
     Te-aş opri în fiecare zi să-ţi spun că eşti cea mai frumoasă întâmplare a fiinţei mele dar, sigur ai sângera şi-ai fugi... Tu... călătorul perfect prin vieţile celorlalţi...
     S-a mai rupt o noapte din intuneric si-a venit ca nebuna peste noi. Te simt in aer... imi intri in piele... si miros ca tine... Daca ai sti ce legata ma simt de noaptea asta... Acum sunt sigura ca si ea vine tot de dorul tau. Esti aici, si ce bine-i... Noapte buna, copil frumos la suflet...

Testament Sufletului Meu

     26.09/09.07
     Te-am sters! Dar nu si din suflet!.. Te-am sters! Dar nu si din minte.
Amintirea ta imi bantuie clipele si nu ma lasa sa respir regulat. Ma apasa pe piept, imi zdruncina stomacul si… ma face sa plang!
     Dar... nu plang! Eu sunt acel copil cu sangele tare care se lupta cu viata…? Cu viata? Poate ca nu cu viata… ma lupt cu inima mea. Ii dau pumni si o inghesui san nu mai simta nimic! Am lovit-o intr-una ca s-o omor... si... n-a murit! Sta ghemuita si abea mai respira.
     Poate ca... inca mai spera la dragostea aceea absoluta...